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[gotgreenmagic]

[Written and filtered to: Profit, Snape, Mozenrath, Kenzie. People on this filter cannot see who else is. Also visible to Tim.]

I did it. Okay?  I poisoned Profit.

I did it, and I need to explain how this happened. I don't care how many of you already know.  Back at the OS-19 port, Arthas and I were both - affected, assimilated, whatever you call it. I was pretty much his PA. Profit paid her to talk Arthas into leaving the port and making as much distance between them and the Barge as possible in the time they had, and she did.

I'm not going to pull any punches here. I have been here for almost two years and this is the worst thing anybody has ever tried to do to me. Don't start with 'at least you'd still be alive'. No. She would still be alive, with her memories and her experiences. I would have ceased to exist. My identity would have been permanently, irreparably destroyed. If that doesn't fit your definition of murder, I don't want to know what does.

I've had the potion since around January. Mozenrath gave it to me. I don't think he thought I was ever going to use it. I didn't think I was ever going to use it - I didn't ask for him to make it for me, but once I had it I held on to it. And when all this happened, I watched Profit for long enough to know when he wouldn't be home and then I spiked his wine.  I don't have any more of the potion and if I did I would have thrown it overboard by now.

So that's it. I'm done. It's for Kenzie to deal with now.

[The following part is added a few minutes later, in voice.  She sounds kind of rough and the general background noise indicates 'infirmary' pretty clearly. This part is not filtered to Profit.]

....I'm not done. What I'm going to say next, I want you guys to know: I'm not trying to minimize whatever it is my Warden decides to hand out, I'm just trying to cut down on the lectures about what a terrible person I was for torturing him. [A really, really is-this-thing-still-on long pause:] I know that already. There is nothing anybody can say or do that will make me wish I hadn't done this more than I do already. I went into this not fully realizing what the consequences could've been, I know that's not an excuse, and if I had the opportunity to do this over I wouldn't.

[...]

Mozenrath told me I should just admit to this a few days back, before port. For what it's worth. But he let me take my own time over this. More than I deserved, really.

Now I'm done.

[Still voice, filtered to Profit and Nygma]

You both know it was me. Everybody else it matters to knows as well.  If you're going to come after me, just do it, get it over with. I don't care.

[OOC: Open spam in the infirmary is also available to anyone who wants it. ♥ She tried to walk off a dinosaur attack like an idiot and ended up passing out from blood loss once she got back on the Barge, right now she's laid up with scratches to her back and leg.]

Comments

SPAMMM

[requiresssacrifice]

You were lucky to have escaped. Need anything for the pain?

[Rex shrugs, trying for nonchalant, but he's still clearly excited and not doing a great job of holding his glee back.]

I managed to avoid getting their attention, for the most part. But I've got some fascinating footage on my communicator. [He reaches into his pocket and goes for the communicator presumptuously, because why WOULD a dinosaur attack make Shego feel averse to footage of them in action?] Want to see?

Re: SPAMMM

[gotgreenmagic.livejournal.com]

I'm good, thanks. [Read: already dosed enough to get over the worst of it.]

[When he goes for his communicator, one eyebrow crawls waaayy up her forehead because do you not understand this is kind of inappropriate, Rex? And yet he looks really -- happy, which is novel, and it feels like it'll take less energy to give in than it will to tell him he's an idiot.]

Yeah. Sure.

Re: SPAMMM

[requiresssacrifice]

[He pulls up the video he recorded of the T-Rex attacking a triceratops and moves over to Shego's side to show her.]

See? Can you believe there are scientists who think that the Tyrannosaurus was a scavenger?

[SCOFF SCOFF.]

I've also managed to get a video of a herd of gallimimus. And some herbivores grazing-- OH! And two male-- I think they were male-- dinosaurs competing for a mate. Or fighting for territory. It's hard to say.

SPAMMM

[gotgreenmagic.livejournal.com]

[She watches the T-Rex going at it for a few moments. It's probably testament to how jaded she's become that already it looks more like TV than a real thing that actually happened.]

Huh. Looks like you actually came out of this pretty well. [She rubs the bridge of her nose.] Speaking of animals, could you do me a favor?

SPAMMM

[requiresssacrifice]

Except for a close encounter with a dilophosaurus, yeah. [He pockets his communicator again, arching his brow.] Of course. What?

SPAMMM

[gotgreenmagic.livejournal.com]

I have a turtle in my cabin. If I give you the code for the door, could you go after your shift and...check on it, feed it, all that stuff? I would, only... [Only she's still hooked up to an IV, clearly.]

SPAMMM

[requiresssacrifice]

Certainly. [Pause.] What kind of turtle is it?

Re: SPAMMM

[gotgreenmagic.livejournal.com]

...It's green? [She pulls a face.] Green and kinda small. The Admiral gives me food and stuff for it so I've never really had to think about it. If you want to identify it while you're in there that would be great.