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89 - Voice

[Intended to be private to Kirk, but is of course completely public. TYVM BARGE.]

[This is posted in the early hours of the morning - four or five AM. Shego's voice is hoarse and whispery - she sounds completely unlike herself. And she's freaking out a bit. A lot.]

I. You. You need to -

- I don't know, I know there isn't anything, I -

- you need to do something. Help me - kill me - I don't care, I am not doing this again, I can't, I won't -

[There's a screech of static and the line cuts out.]

[OOC: What's going on here? She's suffering two death tolls at once - being decapitated by Buffy, and the horrible uber-Death Toll suffered by those who ventured into the engine room during the Dead In The Water event last year. Which was so bad that she pretty much committed suicide-by-Joker for the sake of a hard reset. It didn't work. I....needed to break out the big guns to get through her foot-thick layer of apathy. :V

Edit: As of a couple of days after this has been posted, it and all replies to it have been retroactively made private. People who replied to it can still see it, but nobody else.]

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[...Shego where are your shoes, it's cold and gross out here. :c]

I don't sleep, remember? You should be in bed.

[It really is cold. She might be shivering a little. And she forgot her shoes shut up. She just laughs hollowly at Tim's suggestion.]

I really shouldn't. Not right now.

You should at least have shoes on. [Siiiiigh he settles back on his haunches, balancing with his arms on his knees.]

...Do you want to talk about it?

[She's silent for a long time.]

It's the death toll. Like last year. The dreams -- Joker...

[It doesn't feel like she needs to add much more than that.]

[He doesn't say 'I know,' though. He did. :\ He just nods once, rubbing the back of his head.] If you get into another fight over this, I'm going to be mad. [Don't commit suicide plz. :c]

[She laughs again, toneless.]

What are you gonna do, stop talking to me?

[Subtext: SIR, YOU HAVE ALREADY DONE THIS.]

[GDI. :|] I won't let you win next time we spar.

[At this point they have probably not sparred for over two months. :T She just gives him a look.]

If we were sparring at all I'd consider that an improvement.

Edited 2011-10-19 16:36 (UTC)

....Really?

[He's bad at this be friends thing. Cassie was the only one that worked with, and that was only because ~~worst storyline ever~~ they were both significantly screwed by the universe.]

Tim, we haven't spoken in five weeks. At all.

[She doesn't count exchanging noises in hallways. :|]

[He opens his mouth to say that's not true, but. It kind of is.] We broke up. [That's an explanation, right.]

I didn't realize that my status as your girlfriend was your only reason for talking to me. Those months before we started dating must have been torture for you.

Look, it might surprise you but I actually kind of suck at this. I didn't want things to be weird between us.

Yeah, there's nothing like getting the silent treatment for weeks on end to make things less awkward.

[She's silent for a moment and pushes a hand through her hair. If they're going to have this conversation, it's probably best they do it now while she already kinda wants to kill herself.]

Look, could you stop - hovering? Sit down. [She nods at the floor next to her.]

[But he's so good at hovering. Tim sits down next to her, legs pulled up loosely, wrists resting on his knees.]

So it hasn't been my best plan. Sorry.

It's not like I did anything all that different.

[She shifts restlessly, unconsciously ending up in almost the same pose.]

Do you know why I dumped you?

Do you really want to talk about this? [He's not sure he does. :\ He's got a few months distance at this point, but.]

Before something happens to drive the wedge in even deeper? Yeah, I do. Look, when I broke up with Rayne, it was ugly and she wouldn't talk to me afterward. Then there was a flood a few months later and she -

[Breathe in, breathe out.]

Something happened. And I didn't speak to her for over a year. I lost her as a friend, as anything, and I -- don't want that to happen again. Even if we decide after we talk that there's nothing salvageable here, then fine. But I want to be able to know that we talked.

[He glances at her from the corner of his eye, then stares at his hands, thinking. He doesn't really want to lose her as anything.]

It's always been kind of...black and white for me. Steph as the only ex I've ever interacted with after a break up and that's...not exactly a model.

[He turns to look at her full on.] I'd rather we be friends than nothing. [And attempted smiles!] Sparring just didn't work out too well for us when this started.

[She's...not exactly looking at him but she cracks a sardonic little smile anyway. It fades after a moment.]

I took over the world one time. Kinda. That's...what I didn't want you to see in my file.

[Oh if he wasn't looking before, he is now.]

You what?

[She raises her hands.]

Kinda. Technically it never happened. Apparently my future self talked me into using some time travel gizmo of Drakken's to go into the past so I could take over the present or - something. I don't even remember it, I only know about it at all because it was in my file.

Edited 2011-10-20 23:37 (UTC)

...Parallel universe? [He did not think things got that complex in her world. Jesus Christ.] If it didn't actually happen-- [No, he knows the answer, he doesn't have to ask. It's already nestled in his head that she's capable of taking over the world. Lol like him. :c]

It's not like I would have held it against you.

Alternate timeline, I guess. Possible or her boytoy smashed the gizmo and it pretty much undid everything anybody had used it for.

[She smiles thinly when he says he wouldn't have held it against her.]

It wasn't even about my file. You know that, right? I didn't learn anything about you that day I didn't know already.

[He couldn't decide if he wanted to meet that Shego, or avoid her at all costs, but he was leaning toward the former. He'd rather know exactly what he was dealing with.]

Yeah. [He flexes his hands a little, cracking his knuckles, and tilts his head back to smile wanly up at the creepy stars.]

When I was home, I had this thing, with another girl. She found out about the costume in a kind of terrible way, but she knew, and she kept my secret. I thought we'd have a good thing. [He glances at her again, then shrugs.] Then I did something, and it fell apart.

I'm not going to change. [Which is kind of sad. :\]

89 - Voice

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